Struggling With Hard Providence

Hard Providence

God often uses hard providence to bring forth spiritual growth in the hearts and lives of His children. As the Apostle Paul famously promised to followers of Jesus, “all things work together for good” (Romans 8:28). And by “all things,” Paul meant “all things,” including hard providences.

When times get hard, it can be easy for God’s children to become focused on the waves and not their Christ. During those times, hurting Christians are frequently encouraged to read the Psalms as a means of grace to encourage their hearts, and rightfully so. However, taking it a step further, many of the Psalms also offer a model for praying during seasons of pain and despair.

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Struggling in a box with God

Many years ago, while stuck in a guard shack for several months, I learned to model my prayers of distress after the Psalms. My theatre career had imploded, and I found myself working the third shift as a security guard at a high-end gated community. Those nights were long yet eternally profitable.

Feelings of Abandonment

With my career crashing down around me, I struggled with feeling overlooked by God. I knew with my head that God loved me, but my heart was breaking; I felt like I was slipping farther and farther away from the eyes of my Heavenly Father. Even now, years later, there are still moments when I feel a lack of an existential closeness to my Heavenly Father. While serving as a pastor at my church, I frequently heard hurting brothers and sisters in Christ echo those same feelings as they agonized over their lack of feeling close to God during times of hard providence.

During those times, it’s easy to feel alone. Our prideful heart encourages us to steer into the “woe is me” mindset. A trap the prophet Elijah stumbled into.

Elijah’s Example

After witnessing God humiliate and defeat the prophets of Baal on top of Mount Carmel, Elijah fled to the wilderness. Fearful for his life, he hid from the vengeful Queen Jezebel. While cowering in a cave, 1 Kings 19:9 tells us that “the word of the Lord came to him, and he said to him, ‘What are you doing here Elijah?’”

For his part, Elijah complained that after pouring his heart and soul into ministry, he was all alone. The implicit charge is that God had abandoned him to die alone. That, of course, is absurd, as the rest of 1 Kings 19 makes clear that God never leaves His own.

Being Honest with God

The theme of God’s faithfulness during hard providence, born out in 1 Kings 19, is made clear in many of the prayers found in the Psalms.

One of the things that jumps out to me about Psalms 17, 22, 38, and 43 (a short list) is that the poets didn’t shy away from honesty. In Psalm 17, David reveals in verses 10-12 that the wicked have surrounded him, eager to destroy him. In the great Messianic Psalm 22, David laments in the opening verse,

“My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you so far from saving me, from the words of my groaning?”

Acknowledging the consequences of his transgressions against God, Psalm 38:2-3 finds David crying out,

“For your arrows have sunk into me, and your hand has come down on me. There is no soundness in my flesh because of your indignation; there is no health in my bones because of my sin.”

The poet’s honesty in Psalm 43 is almost stunning in its starkness. In verse 2, the poet asks God, “why have you rejected me?” Continuing, he writes, “Why do I go about mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?”

Surely, on a sliding scale of despair, all Christians resonate from time to time with the laments of those four Psalms. How often have we longed to cry out to God, “why have you rejected me?” Only to be hampered by rigid views of prayer that cage our relationship with our Heavenly Father into that of a prim and proper child that should be seen and not heard?

God Wants Honesty

The writer of Psalm 43 penned his anguished cry under the inspiration of the Holy Spirit. That should comfort us. Our Heavenly Father wants our honest pleas. God desires us to open our hearts and pour our troubles out in prayer. God delights in hearing His children.

When suffering, tell God. When wracked by doubt, tell God. When confused and feeling disconnected from His presence, tell God. Taking our cue from the Psalms, we shouldn’t be afraid to be honest with our Heavenly Father, who hears our cries.

During those months stuck in that guard shack, I spent hours reading the Bible, followed by hours pleading with God. Wrestling with God, like Jacob, who refused to let go (Genesis 32:22-32). Pouring my hurting soul out before my Creator, I begged my Heavenly Father to restore my spirit, heal my hurt, and provide me with faith.

By God’s grace, taking my cue from the Psalms, as I prayed, I clung to God’s sovereign goodness, albeit weakly.

The Kind of Faith we Should Have

One of Jesus’ points, when he spoke of the power of having faith the size of a mustard seed, was that the size of one’s faith is irrelevant; whom our faith is placed in is all important. Yes, the storm’s waves may be crashing about us, but the God of the storm calls us His own. He will not let us sink. The Psalmists’ prayers point us to that truth.

Psalm 17 concludes with a confession that God will ultimately subdue the wicked and oppressor. Ending with a prayer of thanksgiving in verse 15, David confesses,

“As for me, I shall behold your face in righteousness; when I awake, I shall be satisfied with your likeness.”

Psalm 22, of course, is a glorious prophetic cry about the Messiah’s ultimate triumph. Reading verses 22-31 is an exercise in joy. In verse 26, David exclaims,

 “The afflicted shall eat and be satisfied; those who seek him shall praise the Lord!”

No matter our troubles, God’s people are facing a future of complete satisfaction in our Savior. No amount of trials and troubles can overshadow the good things that God has prepared for His children. This is why David is able to write in Psalm 38:15,

 “But for you, O Lord, do I wait; it is you, O Lord my God, who will answer.”

In Psalm 42, the writer expresses the confidence that he will ultimately,

“Hope in God; for I shall again praise him, my salvation and my God.”

Psalm 43:5

Lean on God in Times of Trouble

During moments of pain and emotional turmoil, we are not called to suppress our feelings or deny our pain. However, as we cry out to our Heavenly Father, we also need to cling to God’s sovereign goodness, even if we don’t see nor understand it in the moment. The Psalms encourage honesty, but that openness is rooted in God’s character and divine plan.

Sources

  1. Written by John Ellis
  2. Edits by LFC
  3. Original post on Practically Known Theology

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